Hi Randy,
I just want to say how much I agree with what you have written. I was a J.W. for over twenty years, and I realise that what made me vulnerable to the WTS was my desire for love (which I never found there anyway) and security, plus a naive desire to see a perfect world where no one suffered, and this was the only religion that promised me all these things.
In order to leave the organisation which never, anyway, really made me feel anything other than a second class citizen, I had to confront all my own fears about the future. My 'fading away' and eventual disassociation took a couple of years ( a long story like most) and even after I had disassociated myself I remained on anti - depresants for a year or more. However, once I got over that awful feeling of guilt at having 'abandoned' Jehovah I began to recover fully and to take control of my own life. Now I'm just an ordinary everyday individual with no one telling me how to live my life and criticising my every move. I don't feel the need to knock on doors trying to convert others to a religion that only made me unhappy anyway! I AM FREE!!!!,
Regards to all, Maggie x